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I've been binging on Haven where I've literally been just taking in as much as I can and ignoring everything else (even other social media sites I'm on) since about last Wednesday (the 10th). This was also due in part to having the worst earache I've ever had the displeasure to suffer through and where, as a result, I hadn't been able to sleep all that much--not for lack of trying, but I'd get into bed and all I could focus was on the excruciating pain, and maybe if I didn't lie on my side I could probably fall asleep just to have to get up in a few hours.

I got the earache trying to jam a Q-tip into my ear five days after my trip to the lake where I got some water in my ear unfortunately, but I thought the water was gone by that point! But it wasn't! I just made it worse somehow when I used the Q-tip and dislodged some dormant water or something because I did get that insane sensation like when your ears haven't popped, and I did feel like some water was sloshing around in there. The relief--pure relief--only came when I got the bright idea to put a hot towel on my ear to ease some of the soreness that I probably caused with the Q-tip--no matter how gently I thought I used the damned thing--but I wasn't so hopeful on the dislodging of water from my ear, and I was right. -_- Still feel like my left ear is full of water (and ugh, at one point, I was also scared that my ear was filled with sand as well because the lake floor is all sand and when you try to do handstands on the bottom of the lake with your legs kicking in the air, some sand is wont to get lodged somewhere uncomfortable and unwanted; this is probably not a good idea at all, doing the handstands and other crazy moves I mean, hence the uncomfortable water in ear almost a week and a half later), but I no longer want to chop off my ear to ease the aching pain, so...win, I guess?

BUT! Let's go back to talking about more fun things so--Haven!
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So, it seems as though my thyroid gland is abnormal.

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I don't know really what to make of that because that's all the people at the family center said.

I had another appointment on Tuesday with like a nurse practitioner who my family doctor recommended when I expressed my concern about my period not showing up for like four months. We talked a bit, and she assured me that it was common for me to be irregular, and then she sent Mom and me off to the lab, and they drew some blood.

And today they called and said that we had to go and see the family doctor again so that he can recommend a specialist for me to see about my abnormal thyroid.

Mom thinks that more than likely we'll have to go and see Dr. M again who was a endocrinologist specialist who I saw when I first started having my period when I was eight.

I don't particularly like him; I don't know why, he was very nice and helpful. Maybe I was just weirded out because he was a guy doctor and it felt weird talking about my menstrual cycles with him. Yeah, that's probably it. But I might just have to grin and bear it if we end up having to see him again.

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Okay, so I went down for some food, and long story short, I cut myself.

I actually cut a small piece of skin of my first finger on my left hand. Do I need to go to the hospital for that? Parents went somewhere and probably won't be back for awhile, and brothers are asleep. I've actually lost a lot of blood - more so than when I usually cut myself- and it's still throbbing with pain a little bit.

I've managed to minimize the bleeding to a somewhat less dizzying amount...but I'm worried about my skin. Will I need to tear it off, or will it heal together by itself?

I have no idea what will happen now, and that scares me more than the blood itself because now I have all sorts of wild ideas running through my mind.

I really need to be more careful.

The saddest thing in the universe:

NEW YORK - Heath Ledger was found dead Tuesday in a Manhattan apartment in what police sources are calling an apparent suicide or accidental overdose. He was 28.

According to the New York Times, Ledger was found naked and unconscious with pills strewn all around him. Police sources told the Times that the death appeared to be a suicide or an accidental overdose.

The rest of the article's here.

I loved Heath. I first saw him in '10 Things I Hate About You.'

Honestly, I was very shocked to see this article on hotmail. Usually, celebrity deaths don't shock me. (They're sad and everything, but it's not as though it's personal.) But this was...unexpected and truly tragic.

*oh head, please stop hurting.

*oh, fandom, please stop being so addictive.

*oh, life, please take a break from your frenzy.
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*ded*

So, on my fifteen minute break from my job today, I ran across the street from the library to this bookstore nearby and I asked the saleslady there if they had Eclipse and she said that it's out of print and that they'll get more. So, they'll call me once they get restocked.

Yeah, it's all fine and dandy. I've waited a full year. I can probably wait some more.

I think we all know what this means now. I'm probably going to spoil myself rotten.

No. Must resist the temptation.

*twiddles thumbs and whistles*

Yep, I can wait...I'm probably going to get it by the end of the week, or sooner. Right? Yes. Absolutely.

My Facebook horoscope, it knows me so well:
Taurus: Don't be too disappointed if something you've been looking forward doesn't go as planned this week. You've got to go with the flow.

I'm actually really just going to go 'with the flow.'

I just realized that maybe I should have swung by the bookstore earlier or called...I can be such a scatterbrain sometimes, it's scary. Guh.