And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

[dahlia_moon]

I should be studying (and I am - here and there - and then taking an Internet break that decidedly lasts longer than my studying) except these two ideas for two different fics have taken hold of me and I've been writing like mad these last three days. They're both going to be short - nothing too long - but hey, I'm writing and, I might be jinxing myself by saying this, but I think the writing down ideas part is actually getting easier. Or something. Or I'm just becoming delusional and the writing is as hard as it ever was but I'm in denial?

One story is just very typically me, I think (by which I mean there's fluff, some pining, a misunderstanding, some more fluff when the misunderstanding gets out of the way). And the other, not so much. The second story, which I think is not me at all, is actually a Ozai/Zuko piece from the Avatar: The Last Airbender, and if you're familiar with the characters, you're all probably going, "WTF?" right about now. And so was I. But apparently, I read a Ozai/Zuko piece recently and then I had this sudden urge to write my own interpretation of the pairing even if I am a rabid Zuko/Katara shipper (or as "rabid" as I get, I don't get hung up on pairings too much honestly. I change pairings who-knows-how-many-times, so as long as I can see the "potential" of a ship and it's fun for me to ship particular characters together, that's all that matters, and some times that "potential" and "fun" goes away for me - which is when I know to move on and why I know to not get hung up on pairings when I'm so wishy-washy with them myself). Anyways, the story - while it's basically a PWP sort of fic (yeah, with Ozai/Zuko) and short - is turning dark and I actually can't believe I am writing it. But it's also fun, in a weird, demented sort of way that would squick so many people out (again, we come back to the pairing and the fact that it's basically incest and sexual abuse, but sort of sought-out abuse, if that makes any sense, because that's the only way I'm seeing this pairing work - demented and not at all healthy).

In short: I don't know when I became a demented perv of a person but there it is. *flails*

But the writing is still fun! And I'll keep doing it until it becomes not fun (well certain parts of the process are frustrating, I admit, but there's still that exhilarating rush), no matter where my fics end up going in the meantime.

Comments

[loki-onyx.livejournal.com]

Hey sweety, you're doing okay, don't worry, writing dark is something that explores places in the world of fantasy or sci-fi and other genres. I find some of what I write shocks me, and I look at my muses and they huddle together with a kind of, 'who us?' innocent and cute look on their faces, and they're just adorable lil subversives, in my latest chapter of My Love My Nemesis which I'm going to put under a cut, it is a bit of prose by Doom Phantom, then a scene with Lord Chaos as he does his contemplation of the Galaxy Cauldron, but his lover... she's a hideous contradiction, and I didn't believe the sexual darkness of her little antics in those paragraphs, Argh! But, our muses are just playing with us, pulling the stories from a deeper place, and while some of our fics and original stuffies are seemingly 'did I write that?' reactions, I think they speak to all kind of things, big picture stuff and insights into human nature and psychology and all that...

In short, it's cool, part of the writer's journey, sounds like your mojo is back and that's a great thing to have going, take care girl! <333333333

[moon-destiny.livejournal.com]

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<3333 I believe you've said everything that pertained to me so perfectly well and poetically that I can't really do anything but just want to reach into my computer and squish you in a big bear hug!

[loki-onyx.livejournal.com]

I consider myself wonderfully squished! LOL <33333333333