Not necessarily brooding, per se...
Apr. 16th, 2007 09:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dahlia_moonSo there I was trying to bleed out an original story and I got to wondering why the heck do I write in the first place? (If you can call anything I post "writing".) It's not something I want to pursue anytime in the future and it's not as if it's especially "therapeutic" for me. It really doesn't do anything for me really. It's more like doing... my homework. Fun homework, of course, but writing for me takes a lot of work. And not that kind of work where you plan and ponder and switch things back and foward until everything works like a finely tuned instrument and you're happy with your project because it's how you wanted it to be in the first place. But more like trying to put a series of ideas and attached words to those ideas into a coherency that's at least readable. Anyone can really string words and ideas together into a somewhat presentable piece of work with practice and constructive criticism. It's really like anything in life- there's a process that you follow and that with time and age, hopefully, improves. But the biggest problem that I have right now about writing is that I have no ideas with which to string words to.
I guess I'm just a little impatient when it comes to writing because I'm sure this happens to most who write either professionally or just for leisure. But the difference with me is that I can never seem to get out of this no-ideas-whatsoever funk. However, the weirder thing still is that I can babble on for pages and pages when it comes to any other writing besides fiction. (Coincidentally, my biology essay happened to be five long pages and the teacher deducted ten points because it wasn't really an "essay," but more like a research paper. I don't understand the difference really since I was researching the AIDS/HIV epidemic. I thought it was a good paper and it's revelent here because it happened to be longer than most people's in the class. But I can't seem to stretch out five long pages of either original fiction or even fanfiction. Which irks me beyond all of my other pet peeves and for reasons so unknown to me still.) I suppose you could say I have this love/hate relationship with writing: I love to form ideas and put words to them, but I hate that process of actually coming up with an idea (like a plot or something like it). It's something that should be so painstakingly easy, but comes along with its own hardship because it's the beginning of everything. And it's hard to start something, apparently. =..=
I guess I'm just a little impatient when it comes to writing because I'm sure this happens to most who write either professionally or just for leisure. But the difference with me is that I can never seem to get out of this no-ideas-whatsoever funk. However, the weirder thing still is that I can babble on for pages and pages when it comes to any other writing besides fiction. (Coincidentally, my biology essay happened to be five long pages and the teacher deducted ten points because it wasn't really an "essay," but more like a research paper. I don't understand the difference really since I was researching the AIDS/HIV epidemic. I thought it was a good paper and it's revelent here because it happened to be longer than most people's in the class. But I can't seem to stretch out five long pages of either original fiction or even fanfiction. Which irks me beyond all of my other pet peeves and for reasons so unknown to me still.) I suppose you could say I have this love/hate relationship with writing: I love to form ideas and put words to them, but I hate that process of actually coming up with an idea (like a plot or something like it). It's something that should be so painstakingly easy, but comes along with its own hardship because it's the beginning of everything. And it's hard to start something, apparently. =..=
