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When You Start Caring...
Mar. 31st, 2006 03:25 pmI'm in one of my moods. Not a happy, giddy mood either. I'm an emotional person and just one thing can set me bawling like a baby.
And that one thing today was an inferiority complex. But instead of being aggressive or shy, I had to go and cry my head off. Personally, I would rather go and overachieve something to make myself feel better, but no I had to get all red and puffy about it. This led me to the conclusion that I'm not a strong person, emotionally, and definitely not physically. It's such a shame though. I would like to have been thought of as strong, but I'm obviously not. But maybe I won't dwell much on it.
It's really hard to be myself. Basically everyone in my family is perfect. And I don't have anything in common with anyone related to me or who knows me (in real life). I think all the good genes skipped me. I'm like the black sheep in my family.
I don't have a problem with individuality, more like I don't want to be unique. When I really look, I see that everyone I know isn't really all that of an individiual. They've (including me) all got some aspect in themselves that's about the same as another person's. I mean we're all human beings and that means in some ways we are like. So, where's the individuality in that?
I understand that everyone is different. But we're all built the same. We're all built to learn certain ways, and cope with certain things. So, I suppose the individuality is in that- how we go about doing the same things.
But is there a limit to how individual a person can be?
And aren't things like happiness more important than individuality? Or can you have both?
We're all the same, yet we're all different.
And somewhere in all of this, I fit in. I just don't know where.
I'm a bit alright now, just needed to rant a bit.
And that one thing today was an inferiority complex. But instead of being aggressive or shy, I had to go and cry my head off. Personally, I would rather go and overachieve something to make myself feel better, but no I had to get all red and puffy about it. This led me to the conclusion that I'm not a strong person, emotionally, and definitely not physically. It's such a shame though. I would like to have been thought of as strong, but I'm obviously not. But maybe I won't dwell much on it.
It's really hard to be myself. Basically everyone in my family is perfect. And I don't have anything in common with anyone related to me or who knows me (in real life). I think all the good genes skipped me. I'm like the black sheep in my family.
I don't have a problem with individuality, more like I don't want to be unique. When I really look, I see that everyone I know isn't really all that of an individiual. They've (including me) all got some aspect in themselves that's about the same as another person's. I mean we're all human beings and that means in some ways we are like. So, where's the individuality in that?
I understand that everyone is different. But we're all built the same. We're all built to learn certain ways, and cope with certain things. So, I suppose the individuality is in that- how we go about doing the same things.
But is there a limit to how individual a person can be?
And aren't things like happiness more important than individuality? Or can you have both?
We're all the same, yet we're all different.
And somewhere in all of this, I fit in. I just don't know where.
I'm a bit alright now, just needed to rant a bit.
