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dahlia_moon) wrote2010-09-10 12:42 am
dahlia_moon) wrote2010-09-10 12:42 am
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And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
I should be studying (and I am - here and there - and then taking an Internet break that decidedly lasts longer than my studying) except these two ideas for two different fics have taken hold of me and I've been writing like mad these last three days. They're both going to be short - nothing too long - but hey, I'm writing and, I might be jinxing myself by saying this, but I think the writing down ideas part is actually getting easier. Or something. Or I'm just becoming delusional and the writing is as hard as it ever was but I'm in denial?
One story is just very typically me, I think (by which I mean there's fluff, some pining, a misunderstanding, some more fluff when the misunderstanding gets out of the way). And the other, not so much. The second story, which I think is not me at all, is actually a Ozai/Zuko piece from the Avatar: The Last Airbender, and if you're familiar with the characters, you're all probably going, "WTF?" right about now. And so was I. But apparently, I read a Ozai/Zuko piece recently and then I had this sudden urge to write my own interpretation of the pairing even if I am a rabid Zuko/Katara shipper (or as "rabid" as I get, I don't get hung up on pairings too much honestly. I change pairings who-knows-how-many-times, so as long as I can see the "potential" of a ship and it's fun for me to ship particular characters together, that's all that matters, and some times that "potential" and "fun" goes away for me - which is when I know to move on and why I know to not get hung up on pairings when I'm so wishy-washy with them myself). Anyways, the story - while it's basically a PWP sort of fic (yeah, with Ozai/Zuko) and short - is turning dark and I actually can't believe I am writing it. But it's also fun, in a weird, demented sort of way that would squick so many people out (again, we come back to the pairing and the fact that it'sbasically incest and sexual abuse, but sort of sought-out abuse, if that makes any sense, because that's the only way I'm seeing this pairing work - demented and not at all healthy).
In short: I don't know when I became a demented perv of a person but there it is. *flails*
But the writing is still fun! And I'll keep doing it until it becomes not fun (well certain parts of the process are frustrating, I admit, but there's still that exhilarating rush), no matter where my fics end up going in the meantime.
One story is just very typically me, I think (by which I mean there's fluff, some pining, a misunderstanding, some more fluff when the misunderstanding gets out of the way). And the other, not so much. The second story, which I think is not me at all, is actually a Ozai/Zuko piece from the Avatar: The Last Airbender, and if you're familiar with the characters, you're all probably going, "WTF?" right about now. And so was I. But apparently, I read a Ozai/Zuko piece recently and then I had this sudden urge to write my own interpretation of the pairing even if I am a rabid Zuko/Katara shipper (or as "rabid" as I get, I don't get hung up on pairings too much honestly. I change pairings who-knows-how-many-times, so as long as I can see the "potential" of a ship and it's fun for me to ship particular characters together, that's all that matters, and some times that "potential" and "fun" goes away for me - which is when I know to move on and why I know to not get hung up on pairings when I'm so wishy-washy with them myself). Anyways, the story - while it's basically a PWP sort of fic (yeah, with Ozai/Zuko) and short - is turning dark and I actually can't believe I am writing it. But it's also fun, in a weird, demented sort of way that would squick so many people out (again, we come back to the pairing and the fact that it's
In short: I don't know when I became a demented perv of a person but there it is. *flails*
But the writing is still fun! And I'll keep doing it until it becomes not fun (well certain parts of the process are frustrating, I admit, but there's still that exhilarating rush), no matter where my fics end up going in the meantime.
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In short, it's cool, part of the writer's journey, sounds like your mojo is back and that's a great thing to have going, take care girl! <333333333
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<3333 I believe you've said everything that pertained to me so perfectly well and poetically that I can't really do anything but just want to reach into my computer and squish you in a big bear hug!
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