i don't know what hurts the most

[dahlia_moon]

I worked again today from 1-4. I was in an okay mood the whole morning...until I started working. Then, for some strange, unfathomable reason, I got angry, and my mood turned sour. I seriously wanted to chew someone's head off. Thank goodness human contact was minimal.

I kinda cooled off toward the end; maybe in part because I went outside for my break, and just sat on one of the benches in the middle of Monument Square, watched people shuffling by, and tried to not be so angry at the world.

It was just weird how much anger had built inside of me so quickly. I'm usually not a very angry person, even when I have a cause to be, so when it suddenly shows up for no reason at all, I'm kinda concerned. But, as I've said, I'm thankful there was no one around for me to unleash my wrath on during work- that would've added guilt and regret on top of everything else.

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I haven't been sleeping well these last couple of weeks. Well, I've been sleeping well, and I haven't had any worrying nightmares, but I still end up feeling tired most days, and sluggish.

Something weird's going.

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Comments

[v0calist.livejournal.com]

I got angry just a few moments ago too. Like, anger. (Pretty sure you get what I mean. ^^;) I kept telling myself to calm down and not to take it out on my contact list, because really, it's not their fault that I'm angry. And I know that I can do/say something that I'd regret later.

I just, I closed my eyes and prayed at that moment.

I'm better now, hahah. =) I hope you get more rest and everything.

[moon-destiny.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's not that hard to say something which you'll regret later on, which baffles me because I always though if you weren't a vicious person, then even when you're angry you can't be mean, like if it's not in your nature to be so. Way off the mark there.

=)