dahlia_moon: (Sokka-Sad)
Excuse me while I vent a bit here.

I HATE double standards, and lemme tell ya, I get them a lot around here. For the most part, I can take it because I know my parents are deeply rooted in their old-fashioned ideals and whatnot, and it's not like they can change and it's not like I'm a confrontational person so I won't blow my top over it because that'd be childless and it won't solve anything but make me guilty later on. Although I have told my parents how much I hate that they treat me differently just because I'm a girl, and therefore inferior as opposed to my brothers. But- and I hate to admit it- they're probably right. Left to my own devices, I don't think I'd make it to my next birthday.

I know that my parents are only protecting me because there are a lot of bad things in the world, it's just kind of hard to like it in the moment, you know?

I don't know. And it's not like they baby me or anything, it's just when it comes to basic rules like when we're allowed to stay out till, and whatnot, I always get the short end of the stick. The brothers can stay out till midnight, but I can't stay out past eight unless someone is with me but my dear brothers don't have to adhere to the same rules, which just sucks because it's ridiculous. But I can't seem to do anything about it because they are right.

So basically I feel as though I'm stuck.

Just let me hope that it can get better when I'm actually an adult. (And being a few inches taller would help, you hear that Universe??)

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This morning, twin brother and I found some ants near the potted plants in the kitchen on our way to school.

Brother promptly started to stomp on them, and I felt sad for the poor little creatures. They were just minding their own business and suddenly there's a big shoe coming down on them. It made me think of that Hey Little Ant book.

I know ants are annoying and everything, but they don't deserve to die. Sheesh.

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dahlia_moon: (Gaspard Ulliel)
A guy named Chris called me Thursday and said that they just got Eclipse, so I rushed right over. There was some concert in the middle of the downtown square next to the bookstore. I wanted to stay for a while and listen, but I was anxious to start on Eclipse.

The reading is going slowly. I'm a slow reader. And I've kinda been preoccupied with other things. Mainly listening to Asian songs and catching up on some other reading and basically trying to procrastinate. Even from reading Eclipse. Yes, I know. I'm a bad fan.

Comments on it will come soon. I hope. Right now, I don't especially know how I feel about it. It's a bit different from the other books, granted it's the third one and usually the sequels never compare to the first one. It's like gum, I think. The longer you chew it, the faster the flavor goes out of it. But once you read the first one, you have to follow through with the other ones. Especially out of curiosity's sake.

Also, the more and more I think about it, the more I see Gaspard Ulliel as being Edward Cullen in the alleged upcoming movie. All those fangirls of his finally convinced me, I suppose. The rest of the cast, I just can't see as being portrayed by other actors that I know and have seen because I'll be thinking about the other media in which I know them from and that'll ruin the illusion that they're characters from Twilight. Silly, innit? But, I haven't seen Gaspard act in anything (okay, I'm lying, I have seen him on youtube in that five-minute segment- Le Marais- he was in in Paris, je t'aime, but that doesn't count because he was speaking French, and it was only five minutes).

They really are going to have to go with brand new actors and actresses for the other characters. But, really, the movie planning is so far away from now that I'm really not thinking that much about it. (Compared to other people and Stephenie herself, I spend very little time thinking about it. But that's because, like I said, it's not very far in the planning stage.)

Anyways, the reading is making me fall in love with Edward more and more. As if that were possible. Ha! He's so cunning and clever and hot and smart and gah!!! But, I am displeased with Bella. Suddenly, she's not my most favorite character. ): You know, this is becoming my least favorite book...

*goes back to reading.*
dahlia_moon: (if you stay I don't need heaven (Twiligh)
So I was reading this Esme story this evening (Falling by Imogen) and I was wondering how Carlisle could have turned Esme into a vampire if she had all ready jumped off the cliff and killed herself. My question is, is it possible for a vampire in Ms. Meyer's vampire universe to turn someone if they're all ready dead? And how would that work exactly? Wouldn't something happen to your blood when you die? (I'm not sure exactly what would happen to your blood, but doesn't everything stop working?) And then when that question came to mind, I wondered how Carlisle knew to save/turn her?

Obviously, he turned her because he loved her and wanted to spend eternity with her, but when did he turn her? Is what I'm really getting at, I guess. Was it afterwards when someone realized that she had died, and Carlisle got the news from them? Or did he happen on her just minutes/hours after she jumped?

I don't think it's clear and I don't remember there being anything about it in the books. And obviously I'm curious to the point of obsession. Well, almost. ^^ I really wish there could've been/will be a bit more in the books about their history together. I'd definitely be happy.

Is it obvious that I've become a Carlisle/Esme nut right now? I think so. I just can't seem to get enough of these two. I dunno what's about them, but they grab my attention right now.

I was thinking of asking at one of the many Twilight fan communities that I joined/watch, but I don't wanna sound stupid if the answer happens to be staring me right in the face...
dahlia_moon: (Serenity and Endymion- SM)
So that [profile] twilightathon story  is coming  together nicely.  So far I have over 1,000 words written and I'm now just trying to wrap it up because I think I have written everything that I have wanted to write. I just don't know how to end it...  I'm pretty excited about this Twilight story though;  unintentionally I have included a missing scene from Twilight ( well the prompt actually called for it) and answered some of my own questions  that I have had while reading and rereading Twilight to my own interpretation. I just hope that it makes sense...and that I don't actually screw up canon. Because I like the canon.

I'm really worried about my characterization. Good characterization is everything to me. That's what really makes a fic either good or bad from my point of view. It might have a few grammatical/spelling mistakes, but I can easily overlook those because I can forget about what sort of mechanical error the author had, but if the character isn't similar to its fandom counterpart, it'll turn me off the story. I'm in the fandom because I like those characters how the original author had intended them to be, and if you mess with those characters' traits without any reasonable explanations or visible growth throughout the fic, If the author doesn't pay much attention to her/his characters, and just makes them say whatever without questioning if they're IC or OOC, that won't make the story perfect to me. No matter if it's perfectly polished in everything else...I'll only remember the characters and their actions from the story. That's what will stick out in my mind.

I'm really worried about my characterization here because it involves me writing the Cullen family together and some of them are deep, complex persons and I don't want to mess with the personalities that Ms. Meyer gave them...because that's why I fell in love with them in the first place.

I want to write them the way Ms. Meyer would write them. I guess that's asking for too much? 
dahlia_moon: (Serenity and Endymion- SM)
So, I was browsing through [profile] jukebox20 today ('cos they were spotlighted and it was about music, so I couldn't resist clicking) and it just made me think about some of my own music tastes in comparison to these two's; they are older and probably have the same taste in music as my parents, but that's okay because I actually find that their music isn't so bad (although not as current sure, but that's not the point). I'm one of those people who doesn't mind listening to anything. While I have my favorite genres and artists, I can listen to even artists and songs that I hate (I know that some people aren't like that).

My taste in music is varied and I try to give different music that I normally don't hear every day a chance. However, I don't pay much attention to genre just because I don't identify songs with their genres- it's really weird because whenever I think a song is one genre, it ends up being another (I'm talking about distinguishing between rock & pop here, for some reason, they're the same to me).

Most of my rl friends just listen to mainstream American music that's current. Not that I'm saying there's anything wrong with that- I love listening to it as well, but that's a bit limited from my perspective. So, while I love the current music as much as the next teenager, I also absolutely love music from the old days (even the old days when I wasn't even alive yet). I especially love 80's and 90's music. I don't know if it's because they're old and not aired on the radio as much, but the music from the earlier days has an esthetic air of quality.

I also love soundtracks- even soundtracks from the movies that I didn't like so much because I find that the reverse can be true- a film that I immensely liked might not have the music that I love, but a movie that I didn't like as much could have had all the music that I liked. Soundtracks are also useful to me because they give me more suggestions for music and the music that accompanies a movie/show also sort of tells its own story that goes with that media and I pick the soundtracks that match the vision or "story" that I get that the music tries to tell along with the movie/show---I don't even know if that even makes sense to anybody other than me. This is true for all that J-pop music that I listen to---the anime that I watch, I also listen to the music that it has and the theme songs- like the OSTs.

Also, ljs like [profile] jukebox20, give me great samples of music because no matter how much I love to listen to music, I get so very lost at music stores because there are so many choices that it's hard to see what I will truly like or what I'd waste my money on.

Not that that would stop me from trying to buy every CD from the store because I wanted it for my collection, but ya gotta stay frugal with some things (plus books have the honor of making me throw my money toward their purchase).
dahlia_moon: (SM)
Summer makes me feel stupid... and lazy.

Seriously, even thinking now hurts my brain and gives me a headache. And I think a lot.

The heat is making me uncomfortable as well. I suppose that's why I like colder seasons better. I know. I'm weird. I'd hate living in Florida or some other sunshiny state. I'd be locked up inside like a vampire.

Oh, and speaking of vampires, is it September yet?

I want it to be September now. Or I'll surely go crazy waiting for the release of New Moon.

Yes, Stephenie Meyer has now become my all-time favorite author. Because before I didn't have one and now I do. Which is fantastic because I thought I was weird because I don't have many favorite stuff.

Oh, and I have a new obsession with coffeemate. It's sweet and much better than just putting sugar in your coffee.
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Not that my life is interesting or anything but I thought I should update this thing sometime...

I've noticed as people get older, they get busier. I guess it's just one of the facts of life (speaking of that, I really miss the show, and now there aren't any reruns of it; where have all the reruns run off to? XD I know I'm such a dork, but I digress).

Anyway tomorrow I have this workshop for "Impact of Language" (it's about dealing with degrading language, prejudice, and harassament). I really hope it's just for a day. Am really not interested in doing it but I have trouble saying no, especially since I was nominated for it. I just wanna know who the heck nominated me. Really, with that gigantic school, and me not knowing anybody (but I really can't blame anybody. I've only been going to it for like, what, a month?) So, now I'm stuck. But on a brighter side, I get to miss school for it. I think. I don't think it's gonna take place at the school. But the problem with that is, I'll have to make-up the work. I have a test in World Civilizations to make up after school and I'll have to catch up with my other three classes that I'll miss.

That's all for now. Time to get back to reading Naruto fanfiction. XD^_^
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Helped my aunt move this morning. I'm still a bit sick but it's not as worse as it was a few days ago. Had my orthodonist appointment last Thursday and I have to wait three months until I get my braces. The appointment last Thursday was just for them to get a model of my teeth so they can see how to make the braces and then they have to wait for a letter from our insurance people that says they'll pay for them.

On another note, I suddenly got inspired last night and I wrote, and I wrote. One story's only a page now and the other's a half a page (in really small font though) but, seeing as how I couldn't write anything since last year, I'll count yesterday's inspiration as lucky. Now, I'll just have to hold onto it and actually produce a finished product. (Maybe. *crosses fingers*)
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Alright, so Mom kind of gave me a big shocker this morning. She told me my aunt, my dad's sister, the one who lives somewhere in Eastern Europe, and has a ten year old boy already is... pregnant!

When she first came into my room to tell me, my first reaction was screaming joyously and jumping up and down, nearly running over my mother, and then after that first reaction, I thought 'oh, no, what's going to happen now'. I mean, before I moved here to America, I remember her crying all the time and being forlorn when she would visit with my little cousin. And all because of her good-for-nothing husband. He treats her horribly. He kept breaking her heart over and over again and caused her grief. Now, I don't want to accuse him of abuse, since that would be jumping to conclusions, and I learned from past experiences to not even go there. And I'm positive that he wouldn't go as far as to hurt her physically, just emotionally. But I feel as though she deserves better than him and I can safely say that I don't think I'm alone in thinking that. Dad and his brother, my other uncle, also think that she can do better than him.

As you can probably tell all ready, my aunt's husband is certainly not anywhere near the top of my favorite list. But I could be wrong, (and there's a ninety percent chance that I am) things could have worked out since I last saw her seven years ago. I certainly hope so. I hate feeling this way. But my aunt needs someone who will love her unconditionally and, quite frankly, I don't see my uncle as that man... at least not right now.

On a lighter note, the baby is going to be a girl! Yay! I'm so excited to be getting a new cousin.

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Well, I just graduated from junior high a few hours ago. Alright, so maybe eight graders don't graduate from middle school but we had this huge ceremony for the completion of our three years at King. I had won a few awards but not the one I had wanted to win. The Spirit Award. Of course, it's a tough award to get and I suppose I'm not too bitter at not winning it but you would think that after three years at trying to be a decent human being, someone would notice. (Insert sarcasm here.) Anyways, I guess the four people who had won it, deserve it and I mean this sincerely. I know them and I guess they're the best people to receive the awards. And, besides, there were some people who didn't get any awards. (I'm just stating a fact, not that not getting an award means there was anything wrong with the people. I fully realize there's more to life than awards.)

So, after these three months it's onto high school. Now, don't even get me started on high school. Besides, my nervousness and excitement there's also the loss of old friends I had known since elementary school. Most people are going to the same high school as moi but there's also a small percentage of those who aren't. I'm lugubrious about that. I wish I could be nonchalant and I tell myself that this is just part of moving on but so far it hasn't helped a scintillula.

I'm probably gonna be over it by tomorrow. I was like this when seventh grade ended and I'm gonna be like this when the big high school graduation comes up in four, long, years. Things can only get better. (Boy, am I optimistic today, lol.)
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Just saw it and loved it! I loved the romance and thrill of it, although the ending was a bit sad. I cried a bit. But then again I am an overly emotional person and would cry at anything. It was also a bit violent but not much. Overall, an awesome movie. ^_^ And I got a big Yoda cup at the theater! It's just common sense to have a Yoda cup at a Star Wars movie! ^)^
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Warning: this is a semi-rant post.



Ugh, I feel horrible. I don't think I have anything "bad". Maybe it's because of the fact that Spring Break has ended and I have to go to school tomorrow and I still haven't gotten to my math problem solving. I hate doing word problems. I can solve math problems, algebra problems, whatever. But word problems? I mean I can do them but only with help. I'm just glad I only have one problem to solve but it's going to take me the whole day. I'm not good at math. Can't they understand that and just leave me alone?

Besides not having school for a whole week, I'm flat out tired. I have no idea. Well, maybe I do. I have been staying up until 1:30am and maybe even longer. But as for compensation I have been oversleeping. Yay for me! Sleeping until eleven and not having to be woken up by that shrilling, nefarious alarm clock is actually quite nice.

Well, that's my ity-bity rant. I have to go eat breakfast now before I faint of hunger.





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