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Happy Presidents' Day/Normal Monday. I did wonder this morning why we celebrate Presidents' Day and this Washington Post article kinda explains it. (I myself prefer the apostrophe at the end--to be all inclusive and equal.)

And another link: Living on a Maine island during the winter. I actually live on the mainland, but it was an interesting article nonethless. I have only been to Peaks once, but that once was an awesome time.

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I also have to share what happened yesterday at the mall. My mother and I (after I spent the whole day dreading it and hoping the Apocalypse would come, or a natural disaster or something to get me out of it because I did not want to go) spent a few hours at Macy's trying on dresses for graduation. Ugh. I went through this once five years ago, and I had hoped never to repeat it. But, life, it is so hard. I did find a kinda okay dress, but I didn't buy it because I wasn't all that into it, and I want to come back March or sometime later. (I don't want to go back a second time but I feel like I'm still carrying around a lot of holiday/winter weight that I will hopefully lose when spring comes around.)

Anyway, that is not the story I wanted to tell. After trying on a few dresses, my mother and I went to get chicken teriyaki at the food court and when we were coming back in the direction of Macy's (because that's where we were dropped off and had to return), we saw two guys holding hands. I thought they were extremely cute. My mother? Said they were crazy.

I'm choosing to believe she meant it in a kinda concerned way and not...homophobic way. But there's honestly no way to tell. And I don't want to find out.

So. I feel like I have to apologize not just to every gay or bisexual or asexual person, but to every straight person too. I'm so sorry on behalf of my mother. If it helps, she was born in a village in an European country that's still so far behind the times. It shouldn't excuse her behavior at all, but that's kinda her head space.
dahlia_moon: (girl power)
So I went to my local comic store again today and shamelessly spent a lot more money on more comics. (Self-control, I haz it not but thankfully, there was a $26 discount in there so I didn't end up spending as much as I would've without the discounts.) I brought Spider-Woman: Origin, The Amazing Spider-Man: Secret Invasion, Young Avengers: Family Matters (which is a compilation of issues #7-#12 and Young Avengers Special #1 - of course I'd have loved to get the beginning issues too, but the store didn't have them so will keep a lookout on them), and What If? Secret Wars #1, which is a compilation of Captain America: Fallen Son, House of M, Spider-Man: Back in Black, Newer FF, and Young Avengers/Runaways and answers such questions as what if Doctor Doom kept the Beyonder's power? What if Iron Man had died instead of Captain America? What if the Scarlet Witch had said, "No more powers" instead of "No more mutants?" What if Mary Jane was shot instead of Aunt May? What if the new Fantastic Four stayed together as a group? And finally, what if the Runaways became the Young Avengers?" Which is all YAY and makes me ^__________^ and *____________*.

Still didn't get to buy Abandon by Meg Cabot, but the store ordered it for me and will be here by Wednesday so hopefully will have it in my possession by then.

It's kinda funny that I've just been buying Marvel stuff. I didn't intend for it to end up like that intentionally, it's just all the characters I've been interested in have been from titles that Marvel's published (X-Factor, Runaways, Young Avengers, Spider-Man, and the Fantastic Four, once I figure out where I want to start with them - not from the beginning, LOL) but I totally do want some DC titles too and have been meaning to check out Birds of Prey, not just because it's a DC title but it's primarily focused on female superheroes, which, HELLO, YAYNESS. (And Batgirl sounds awesome too. And of course Batman and Superman titles would be awesome to get into too but Batman & Superman have been around relatively a lot longer than Batgirl or Birds of Prey. Batgirl didn't appear as a character until '61 whereas Batman's been around since the late 30s.)

There were also some Tiny Titans issues I've been thinking about buying some day because they're all just so cute! And I've read the Tiny Titans: Sidekickin' It trade back before and it was so funny and witty for an all-ages comics. (And I find it funny that in Tiny Titans, Slade is the principal of their side-kick school and Darkseid is the janitor/whatever-else-Slade-wants-him-to-be, especially because in the DC continuity verse, Slade and Darkseid are very evil and creepy but Tiny Titans does even say in its comic that it's not part of the continuity so it really should be enjoyed for its adorableness - which I have no problem with.)

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After attending my brother's fiancée's graduation on Saturday, we (my brothers, my brother's fiancee, and her mother, who I incidentally met for the first time on Saturday) all went out to lunch to Kons Asian Bistro, where I had the filet mignon and shrimp combo - because I absolutely love shrimp, seriously my love for shrimp knows no bounds, I wish I could eat it everyday - and they all had a combination of chicken, salmon, and filet mignon too. And of course we got some combo of vegetables and hibachi fried rice. It's always awesome to have a hibachi table and be entertained while waiting for the food.

So it was a good week. And I finished my second year of undergraduate college last Wednesday too.

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And will end this post with the awesome Tiny Titans: Sidekickin' It cover:
dahlia_moon: (slipper)
Writing is going good (I hope I didn't jinx it by saying it now thought). I have two different stories in my head I'm in the process of writing down so we shall see if anything comes of it. Still haven't finished my Big Wolf on Campus fic. I have no idea why this story doesn't want to get finished except maybe for the fact I'm not working on it as much as I should. But it has plot! and sex! And unfortunately I wrote all the porny, good stuff first and now don't want to go back and add in the plot. *hands* And I really like the plot too so I don't want to leave it and just have it be a sex piece because it really wouldn't make sense without all the stuff that happens prior to the good, porny bits.

The one good thing from me not finishing this story is me rereading all the other parts and editing as I'm reading. This process helps because once I finish this story, I am so not gonna want to look it again and the editing process will fall by the wayside.

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I don't know if I've talked about this on here - I have over on Twitter - but am totally committed to getting a Nursing degree now (as opposed to before when I was just on the fence about it). The nursing school applications are due the 15th of this month and I've yet to start. Someone please just light a fire under me. This is my future here and I'm just dilly-dalling like I usually do.

But I totally have to have faith that I'll be a good Nursing student because this preemptive thinking that I'll fail before I even start is getting to be detrimental. That has always been my problem though - I'm not good at the positive thinking but I'm really trying to change in that respect. (Funny enough, it's my brother that keeps telling me to think positive - "the power of positive thinking" he calls it. Geez, you send him away to college for a year and a half and he comes back all mature and stuff. What is that about?)
dahlia_moon: (Sokka-Sad)
Excuse me while I vent a bit here.

I HATE double standards, and lemme tell ya, I get them a lot around here. For the most part, I can take it because I know my parents are deeply rooted in their old-fashioned ideals and whatnot, and it's not like they can change and it's not like I'm a confrontational person so I won't blow my top over it because that'd be childless and it won't solve anything but make me guilty later on. Although I have told my parents how much I hate that they treat me differently just because I'm a girl, and therefore inferior as opposed to my brothers. But- and I hate to admit it- they're probably right. Left to my own devices, I don't think I'd make it to my next birthday.

I know that my parents are only protecting me because there are a lot of bad things in the world, it's just kind of hard to like it in the moment, you know?

I don't know. And it's not like they baby me or anything, it's just when it comes to basic rules like when we're allowed to stay out till, and whatnot, I always get the short end of the stick. The brothers can stay out till midnight, but I can't stay out past eight unless someone is with me but my dear brothers don't have to adhere to the same rules, which just sucks because it's ridiculous. But I can't seem to do anything about it because they are right.

So basically I feel as though I'm stuck.

Just let me hope that it can get better when I'm actually an adult. (And being a few inches taller would help, you hear that Universe??)

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This morning, twin brother and I found some ants near the potted plants in the kitchen on our way to school.

Brother promptly started to stomp on them, and I felt sad for the poor little creatures. They were just minding their own business and suddenly there's a big shoe coming down on them. It made me think of that Hey Little Ant book.

I know ants are annoying and everything, but they don't deserve to die. Sheesh.

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dahlia_moon: (I'd rather die than be away from you (Tw)
I am having a bad month, and I just wish I could go crawl in a cave somewhere.

I'd definitely be a lot safer there. <**>

I hurt my left knee so bad this morning. It only hurts when I bend it though, so walking normally is fine, but going up/down stairs is a hassle. The weird thing is I have no idea *how* in the world I got it hurt. I was in class, got out of my seat, and turning around, pain shot through my knee...

I probably just got a cramp, but I'd like to survive this month relatively undamaged- if that's not asking for too much.

Please, whoever is up there??

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Some good news I heard today is older brother got an internship at this small design company in Scarbough. He's going to SMCC for a degree in computer media/graphics design...or something like that, and will work when he doesn't have class.

He's going to get paid, and hopefully get some experience working in the industry. ^^

I'm so happy for him!

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So, April is in about six days, and you know what that means...NATIONAL POETRY MONTH.

I look foward to this all year long. ^)^

I all ready have some awesome poems all ready bookmarked to post, and this year I will not slack off and not post a poem everyday for the whole thirty days because poems are awesome and should be encountered every day of the year, and not just April.
dahlia_moon: (Helga/Arnold)
So, Mom and Dad brought brother's car today.

It's a deep red '99 Ford Escort. It was $2,500 and has 64.000 milage (like I know what that means). It's so cute! (Ok...maybe not the right adjective to describe his car. XD) It's used though, so it's not exactly too nice looking. Mom and I spent about two hours today cleaning and washing it and it's still a bit shitty to be honest. But it runs okay and that's the important thing.

It does have a sticker of the Deering High Rams on the back window though (the adversary for PHS bulldogs, where we go to school; ha, just thought that was funny when I got excited about getting driven to school in it and wondered if people would notice, but they probably wouldn't even glance at it. The only Serbian girl I know who went to Deering was its previous owner. My nationality tends to pick Portland High...since it's more diverse.)

Honestly, though it's so different from our car, it's going to take awhile to get used to it because it's a drive-stick as well (is that what it's called when you have to shift the gears while driving, I dunno?), as opposed to our Dodge Stratus, which isn't. The seats are also really low and the layout of the radio system is different, it's like gahhhh! What do you do?

>>Quite honestly, I really am not a car enthusiast, but this is all so exciting! I could stare at this car all day/night and talk about it...but well I can't. Blah.

I hope my brother gives me a ride around the block tomorrow...I did give him $50 for it since he was short of it!

EDIT: HOMG, I found this image of the car model and it looks exactly like the one we bought!


*Image copyright Google Images
dahlia_moon: (X/1999)
You know, the hardest part about being a twin is separating yourself from your twin individually.

I love my brother, truly I do but it's really hard to be my own person and to be independent because every time I turn around, he's there. Not that I'm complaining. But since he's my brother, he has the tendency to kinda be controlling when he's around me because he feels like he has to protect me.

I just want to feel like I can have one thing that's my own because he has his sports and his guitar and I don't have anything that's my own. We both have the same things- we are both great students. We both go to the gym. I like this part because it's the only fairness a twin can get (what he has, I have, what I have, he has) but besides that I am the same as my twin.

Well, there is one thing that separates us, and that's my love for fandom and Japanese music and shows. Yet, he still makes fun of me for that.

It really is hard being a twin. =<

(I know there are also perks to having a twin, but I just wanna dwell on the downside for a while.)

P.S. I envy all of you who have DH and are reading it/finished reading it. I would love you forever if you spoiled me. I like getting spoiled. ^^
dahlia_moon: (House of Flying Daggers)
You know that you're not a normal teenager when you try to swindle your mother into going to the bookstore instead of a clothing store. 

But in my defense (o_o), I really, really despise shopping for clothes. I don't know what it is. The instant I don't find something I like, then the whole shopping experience goes downhill for me. 

And then when we got to Walden Books this evening, I felt like I was in heaven, mostly because I saw the manga section (which I don't remember ever being there). I looked at all the awesome books, and when we were about to leave, I still hadn't decided on a book. I saw Twilight and wanted to buy it, but the only two copies they had, didn't satifsy me. Basically they were not in the best condition. So, this conversation followed with my brother:

My brother: "You're so annoying, Jelena."
Me: "I don't like the cover."
My brother: "Who cares about the cover?"
Me: "I do. I want my book to be perfect."
My brother: "Ugh, just buy it all ready."

Long story, short: my parents decided to come back another time and use my giftcard then.

Wah, I wanted my copy of Twilight now though.
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So, I want to get my own laptop. The problem: a laptop that I want costs around $1,000. Now, I have $500 saved up already. And I just need to save $500 more. So, I figured that I'll need to work for six months to save up that much more. (Assuming I can learn to say "no," when people ask me for money.)

I think it's a reasonable goal. And I *need* my own computer. Seriously, brothers can get pretty possessive. *grumbles to self*

In other news, fam & I went school shopping this afternoon. Long story short, it was a very difficult three hours. Mostly because there were three very stubborn, argumentive people crammed into one tiny dodge stratus. And it was very humid and I was hungary as a horse.

And now I shall watch some comedy to make me feel better.
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I got a new baby cousin this Wednesday! I'm just sad that we live across the ocean from each other and I can't go visit her anytime I want. Oh well.

Theodora was welcomed into the world on Wednesday November 2, 2005. (I know, weird name. But it's kinda pretty. It kind of sounds Shakespearan. Don't know.)
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So, I had this weird dream last night and I'm pretty sure I know what it means. But the problem is that I don't think I can do anything about it.

The only bits of it that I can remember is my older brother chasing me and us laughing, and hanging out. I guess it's my subconscious telling me I need to hang out with my brother more. I love him and everything but I feel like we're really distant. We have nothing in common and I feel like we're not going to have a lot of time in the future to just hang out and be irresponsible.

Oh, I don't know. He and my other brother hang out and I guess I feel kind of left out. My other brother is my twin and it's like I see him 24/7 but my other brother lives in California (for now, he's in the navy). And that's so far away. We only see him twice a year. It's just bugging me because I want to be one of those people who are close to their siblings, and right now I can honestly say I'm not that close to my siblings (even though it's purely unintentional, it's just how it is right now).
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Alright, so Mom kind of gave me a big shocker this morning. She told me my aunt, my dad's sister, the one who lives somewhere in Eastern Europe, and has a ten year old boy already is... pregnant!

When she first came into my room to tell me, my first reaction was screaming joyously and jumping up and down, nearly running over my mother, and then after that first reaction, I thought 'oh, no, what's going to happen now'. I mean, before I moved here to America, I remember her crying all the time and being forlorn when she would visit with my little cousin. And all because of her good-for-nothing husband. He treats her horribly. He kept breaking her heart over and over again and caused her grief. Now, I don't want to accuse him of abuse, since that would be jumping to conclusions, and I learned from past experiences to not even go there. And I'm positive that he wouldn't go as far as to hurt her physically, just emotionally. But I feel as though she deserves better than him and I can safely say that I don't think I'm alone in thinking that. Dad and his brother, my other uncle, also think that she can do better than him.

As you can probably tell all ready, my aunt's husband is certainly not anywhere near the top of my favorite list. But I could be wrong, (and there's a ninety percent chance that I am) things could have worked out since I last saw her seven years ago. I certainly hope so. I hate feeling this way. But my aunt needs someone who will love her unconditionally and, quite frankly, I don't see my uncle as that man... at least not right now.

On a lighter note, the baby is going to be a girl! Yay! I'm so excited to be getting a new cousin.

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