haven 4x08

Nov. 2nd, 2013 07:30 pm
dahlia_moon: (Default)
Overall, I thought this was a much better ep than "Lay Me Down", although that's not saying much because I still think everyone has been so wildly out of character so far this season. But I guess I should let it go because it is a new season and things have changed, and I can't expect them to remain the same characters. I acknowledge that, but I could still do without the stupidity that's been plaguing some of the characters.

The trouble of the week was very cool, though. Terrifying, but cool. And I love that Audrey/Nathan have consummated their relationship. Yayyy! After three long seasons of UST, it's about damn time. And 'm so happy about Duke/Jennifer too.

Still sad about Jordan being gone. Vince and Dave continue to be the best thing about Haven, imho. I wish we could find out if they're Troubled or not.

I'm behind on Elementary and Castle, and might not get caught up until next week. The last two weeks have just been essays, essays, essays, midterm, and one more essay due this Tuesday so that's all my head could handle.

~*~

I was the only younger looking person at the Q&A at the O'Brien Poetry Event Friday featuring Charles Simic. It made me feel extremely self-conscious, but I got through it.

The bad news is I left before I got an autograph, but it's okay. It was just great seeing him speak and read. I brought a new book of his poetry at Longfellows, which is what screwed me from buying a pre-autographed book they had at the event. I guess I'll just chalk this up to a learning experience, and not berate myself.


a poem )
dahlia_moon: (Teen Wolf - Lydia)
So I have two papers due next week, both for different classes (the Modern Novel class, and a Sex, Gender, and Species in Sci-fi class), but for the same book - Atwood's Oryx and Crake. Do you think I could get away with writing just one paper and passing it in for both classes? I mean, at this point, I just want to be done with this semester, but on the other...I don't think I can get away with that; it feels like cheating. And I'm pretty sure all English professors talk to each other here.

Oh decisions, decisions.

(This is the first time this has happened in my academic career, and I'm not sure I'm brilliant enough to ramble for 5+ pages twice on the same book.)

oh fuck
graduate school will kill me if this is the attitude I have when I'm only an undergrad.
i just really want to spend all day writing fic and catching up on movies/tv i haven't seen yet, not writing analysis papers.
dahlia_moon: (batgirl!steph)
The problem is I am an awesome English/Humanities student, rocking out A's and B's like it's no thing (not to sound like I'm bragging or anything because most of the time I am more self-deprecatory than anything), making me the perfect candidate for the English major. The OTHER problem is that I am a sucky Science student, making me a not-so perfect candidate for the Nursing major.

I just really have to ask myself is all this worth it? Am I doing this for the right reasons and not because it's something my parents envision for me? I honestly have no answer for this question. They believe in me so strongly and I need this especially now when I don't believe in myself. It's not that I abhor the sciences, I'm just not good at them; they don't come as easily to me as the Humanities stuff. But that shouldn't mean I shouldn't try my hardest to try to be successful at them.

So that's where we are.
dahlia_moon: (teddy bear)
"The Madness Vase" 
Andrea Gibson

The nutritionist said I should eat root vegetables.
Said if I could get down thirteen turnips a day
I would be grounded, rooted.
Said my head would not keep flying away
to where the darkness lives.

The psychic told me my heart carries too much weight.
Said for twenty dollars she’d tell me what to do.
I handed her the twenty. She said, “Stop worrying, darling.
You will find a good man soon.”

The first psycho therapist told me to spend
three hours each day sitting in a dark closet
with my eyes closed and ears plugged.
I tried it once but couldn’t stop thinking
about how gay it was to be sitting in the closet.

The yogi told me to stretch everything but the truth.
Said to focus on the out breath. Said everyone finds happiness
when they care more about what they give
than what they get.

The pharmacist said, “Lexapro, Lamicatl, Lithium, Xanax.”

The doctor said an anti-psychotic might help me
forget what the trauma said.

The trauma said, “Don’t write these poems.
Nobody wants to hear you cry
about the grief inside your bones.”

But my bones said, “Tyler Clementi jumped
from the George Washington Bridge
into the Hudson River convinced
he was entirely alone.”

My bones said, “Write the poems.”

~*~


Welp...that's it. Rejected for the second time for the Nursing program. What the hell is wrong with me? Why won't they accept me?
dahlia_moon: (Default)
I have no morning classes this semester which is yay!!! I have packed three in one day (Thursday) though but I can handle three classes once a week. NO. MORNING. CLASSES. I'm just gonna let that sink in for a bit.

So most classes are English (and one Bio lab class that I *should've* taken with the Bio class my freshman year but I was a dunce then, didn't know that most science classes consisted of a lab + lecture component) and this other class (something called Ocean Planet, I have no idea what it's about but it was the only open class that meshed with my schedule) I took just because the parents are making me take five classes to be considered a full time student. Taking five English classes in one semester is not smart so I needed a bit of variety for the two classes that aren't going toward my (new) major. (One of the English classes is Creative Writing so that might just leave two hard classes with a lot of reading/assignments. Another is Intro to Literary Studies and another is Poetry - the genre.)

Of course classes start today and I still haven't picked up my books. I was going to go Friday but then we experienced a mini blizzard and I just opted for staying inside and lazying on the couch. I'll go after my one class today and then I wanted to buy one or two new books just for leisure reading but I have to order them - don't think this particular bookstore will have them in stock there already - so I have no idea when I'll pick those up (assuming they order them for me).

~*~

a seasonal meme that I should've posted way before this:

In 2012, moon_destiny resolves to...
Lose ten tsubasa crossovers by March.
Volunteer to spend time with teen titans.
Find a better fallen.
Get back in contact with some old museums.
Go to music every Sunday.
Drink four glasses of manga every day.






Get your own New Year's Resolutions:


and this popular meme that's going around:

Pick up the nearest book to you.
Turn to page 45.
The first sentence describes your sex life in 2012.


"It was, of course, a ridiculous idea that Mr. Darnay would not notice whether she was there or not - Sue chuckled over it herself at the time - but she found, as the day wore on, that her idea was not very far from the sober truth."

In context, this quote is oddly appropriate for my sex life in 2012.
dahlia_moon: (Psych- ShawnxLassiter)
(I know I updated yesterday, but, man, is this getting to be a stressful month and I just need somewhere to vent.)

- So, upon the tragic death of Dr. N, we didn't have class Monday or Tuesday of this week - neither the lab nor the lecture - and today was our first return to the lecture classroom since we heard about his death. And everybody is pretty much up in arms because here we are, a week before we have to take both the lecture and lab final on a very hard subject, and we didn't cover all the material (we were close to it but we didn't finish) and so we're like floundering fish on dry land.

The difficulty is no one knows what's happening now or how we can continue the normalcy for the short time we have left of microbiology. We have a professor come in - a very close friend of Dr. N's - who told us of Dr. N's death and who's going to be teaching the last few classes there are left. But while he was a very good friend of Dr. N's and knows pretty much a good portion of what Dr. N's system was, the truth of it is that he is NOT Dr. N. And therein lies the problem and hardships.

But apparently everyone else was like, "We pay money to go here, and this is not acceptable. There should be a procedure in place for when something like this happens and blah blah yadda yadda ya." God, like all these people can think about is money and I get that it's before finals week and everyone's stressed and we're all freaking out and this is college and not free education but god, again, the world is not just about us. But we are apparently a very selfish species.

- And I apparently need an English adviser. Frick. (Well, to be fair, Rodney did tell me this when I told him I wanted to pick a major, so it's not like it's surprising but I was hoping if I pretended to not know, it'd go away. Hint: it hasn't - they just e-mail you). I'm so not good at talking to professors - or ANYBODY for that matter.

- I had an extra cup of coffee today because I'm apparently useless after 10 pm and just pass out because my body apparently hates me and I can't stay up past midnight anymore. I have no idea what that is about. Except now I'm jittery and like I want to run a marathon; I am sure the crash will happen soon-ish and I will pass out and not finish studying and that will make me feel guilty in the morning. And I've been making flashcards since about five pm this afternoon and just for one class AND IT IS NEVER ENDING. SERIOUSLY IT WILL NEVER END AND I WILL LOSE WHAT'S LEFT OF MY SANITY.

So in conclusion: ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
*MORE FRUSTRATED CRIES*
dahlia_moon: (girl power)
So a few weeks ago when I went to see my adviser to pick out my classes for next semester, I also, spontaneously decided to pick my major. Because it was time, seeing as I'm in my junior year of undergrad and well, I've already finished the core requirements and most of the prerequisites for Nursing (there's one that I haven't taken that's called like Concepts in Nursing Research or whatever...which, blahhhhhhhhh research. The bane of my existence. Might take that next fall).

So, anyways, I decided that I was going to choose English as my major. And Holistic health as a minor. But I really wish I could've chosen Holistic health as a major and English as a minor or...but whatever this will do.

But, hold on, you're thinking to yourself (or at least that's what you do in my head), didn't you want to be a Nursing major?

Well, yes, yes, I did.

AND I'M TOTALLY NOT GIVING UP ON BEING A NURSE. Because now that it's, like, actually TOUGH as nails to get in, I've decided that my calling - the one thing that will make my LIFE SO INFINITELY HAPPIER and WHICH WILL GIVE ME A HIGHER PURPOSE ON THIS EARTH THAN SLEEPING IN LATE AND BUMMING AROUND LIKE A...BUMMER-LIKE PERSON - IS TO BE A PEDIATRICS NURSE (OR A NURSE OF ANYTHING WILL DO). And I'm not giving up on this dream, but while I reapply to USM's nursing program and sit on my thumbs while they dangle my fate in their hands, I'm just gonna think about getting a degree in English. Because I like English. I'm a book worm (even if...um, the last time I read a book for fun was something Meg Cabot-related and I speed-read through it because my mind has been high-jacked by important medical textbook reading) and English was always my best/favorite class in grade school.

So, y'know, even if getting an English degree was like plan...H, I'm gonna go ahead and see what happens on that front. (Or maybe I'll initiate my plan B - which is to try to get accepted to another school's Nursing program even if I have to move away and become a transfer student...but that's not something I'm ready for yet. And I don't have to think about Plan B until like April - when, again, USM School of Nursing decides if they want to rip out my heart and stomp on it.)

(My parents...bless them..were like, "so what can you do with an English degree?" I feel like that's what they're gonna be asking me for the rest of my life.)

Sigh. Well, that was long and rambly.
dahlia_moon: (Shelter- ShaunxZach)
Gosh, it's gonna be a drag to go back to school but on the other hand, I'm really very excited. (Been so bored this past summer because I literally did not do anything of importance.)

But it's also my third year of undergraduate college and I'm not looking forward to that because I still have no idea what I'm gonna do because the Nursing program seduced me, screwed me over, broke my heart in a million pieces and then laughed about it. But I'm gonna need to pick something and Rodney told me at our last counseling appointment that he has a plan B in case I don't get in, except I have no idea what this plan B is, unless it's just picking another major, which will NOT DO, it will simply not do, Rodney, it's either the Nursing program for me or I'm going to give up all my worldly possessions and go live under a rock as a hermit. And trust me, no one will want that. :/

I might as well be dramatic while freaking out.

So far my classes are:

Microbiology & Human Disease lecture + lab
Pathophysiology
Human Nutrition
Public Speaking
(And I've shared some pictures of the books for these classes here on my Tumblr.)

I'm freaking out for the Spring semester because, after these classes, I'd have finished all the prerequisites for the Nursing program and I don't know what else I'd need to choose.

I was thinking studying abroad would be awesome for the Spring semester because maybe then I can freak out in another country. We shall see.

But seriously, that hermit idea is sounding more and more appealing to me.

~*~

[community profile] fannish5: Now that the summer is coming to an end (in the Northern Hemisphere), what 5 shows are you most looking forward to starting/returning?

1. The Vampire Diaries (9/15/2011)
2. Psych (10/12/2011)
3. Suburgatory (9/28/2011)
4. Terra Nova (9/26/2011)
5. The Secret Circle (9/15/2011)

and some runners up:
6. 2 Broke Girls (9/19/2011)
7. Last Man Standing (10/11/2011)
8. Once Upon a Time (10/23/2011)
9. Grimm (10/21/2011)
10. Hart of Dixie (9/26/2011)

I don't like getting into shows until I know for certain whether they're going to be cancelled during the first season or not so the latter half of the list are all new shows I'm kinda iffy about (sometimes I can't avoid getting into new shows before they're finished with the first season). But LMS has Tim Allen!!! Who I have this sort of weird crush on. I dunno. Don't ask. I don't get it either.

And the trailer for "Once Upon a Time" is making me all kinds of squeal-y because FAIRY TALES!!!!!! FINALLY A SHOW ABOUT FAIRY TALES!!!!!!! WHICH IS ABOUT DAMN TIME (because we keep getting movies and movies and books and books - which I love don't get me wrong - but no one ever thinks about a fairy tale tv show - well, until now that is). And there's also Grimm, I believe, but I haven't seen that promoted as much and I have no idea what it's about.
dahlia_moon: (SGA team awesome)
bullet list!
  • I really need to write porn. Why does writing fail me at such an awesome time?
  • Some "The Vampire Diaries" spoilers. Most of the things they spoil I could've predicted already. And some of the things they spoil, I wish wouldn't turn out true. Like that Stefan spoiler in particular. Didn't they already do that?
  • After avoiding "Smallville" for ten years, I'm totally hooked now. Reading summaries like these and catching up on the show is not helping. And I mostly watch just for two characters - Oliver and Chloe. Chloe, I know has been with the show since the beginning but she's been absent for most of the last season because the actress, Allison Mack, has other commitments and she's only going to be in five episodes for the last season which is sucky. Oliver is the Green Arrow in both the comics and the show and he's such a fascinating character because he's the only superhero on the show who doesn't have a superpower beyond just his human strength and agility. But really, I love all the characters and the guest stars that appear. I came for the Chloe/Oliver but I stay for the Lois/Clark, and Martha Kent and Tess Mercer and Emil the Doctor and Cyborg and Aquaman and Impulse and just gah. I know the fandom though is such an explosive place and I'm shocked at the hate that is sometimes heaped on Clark, who is the main character and therefore does get the major plot lines and the most screen time so y'know I understand that minor characters often get shafted and that's just how it goes with a show like this that brings in a lot of characters and plot lines but that is only a 40-minute show (60-minute if seen live).
  • School started last Tuesday and so far it's going great. I vowed to actually really buckle down and study and it's been going great. The trick is to not turn on this blasted laptop until I've finished everything and it actually works. So now I'd really like to make the Dean's list - at least for one semester - that'd be lovely.
  • I also mailed the application to the Nursing program at my uni and now I just have to wait, which is killing me. I have no idea if they'll send me a letter if they reject me or what or how long it'll take them to go through everything and reject or accept me and let me know. I told myself I wasn't going to obsess over it and whatever happens will happen but, ugh, just the wait is killing me.

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